My heart has been so heavy the last couple of days. The school I work at is scheduled to close the end of June which means loss of jobs for many people and losing the day to day association with many people that I have come to care about a great deal.
General Conference was amazing! It was the shot in the arm that I needed - and yet I still feel so 'alone'. I so much want to go home. I miss Cache Valley. I miss our little family. I hate being so far away from one another. I miss the events and celebrations associated with extended family - weddings, births, birthday parties, graduations, holidays.... we've missed so much. And yet - here we are - 1,000 miles away and alone. Surrounded by people we know, by friends, by good members of the ward - yet feeling so alone.
I've reflected much on our family the last couple of days, and I am almost overwhelmed with the love I feel for them. It is heartwarming that when someone has something wonderful or funny or totally off the wall happen, we call each other. We laugh, we enjoy the direction our footsteps take us. And on the other hand - when one is struggling, the rest rally around ~ be it in prayer, hugs or long conversations on the sofa or the phone.... sometimes on the sofa via the phone! However it happens - our family is a blessing to me. I also know that any of us would travel great distance at great sacrifice if needed to be there for someone in our family.... I am so proud of each person, the gifts they have and how they use them. I know sometimes we all feel inadequate, unlovable, unworthy. And so at this Easter season - I am grateful to have been reminded of the One who is for us all! Who loves us unconditionally. Who was willing to give all for you and I. Who has already gone before us - to prepare for us - for you and for I - a mansion of our very own in the Kingdom of our Father on High. Enjoy this message and may the blessings of Easter be with you now and always - and may He come quickly. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EpFhS0dAduc